Arlene, our good, good friend and blogster, wrote to me asking where I was. Yes, it’s been a long time again and I felt I really owed an explanation, so here is the letter I sent to her, and it also goes to you:
You have got to be the dearest soul on the planet, Arlene. I don't mean to disappear. I think of all the years on WindowsLive Blog and never missed a post. Then we get to Blogspot and I was ok for a good while but as you know, first Mom died, then my 8 closest friends all in the course of that year. THEN, I got sick. All I can say is I hope that I'm getting closer to the end of all the crappy luck. This knee surgery has been the pits. It is very, very uncomfortable to sit at the computer for anything. I hate sitting in chairs for more than about 5 minutes and then have to stand or lie down. This blasted PT therapist has really hurt me. A few weeks ago, I was actually getting better and could take the steps up and down. BUT....he decided on his own that something could be out of place and he literally gouged his finger under my knee cap and you could have heard me scream for miles. He jumped back and all he said was Opps. Because of that, I was back on a cane, couldn't do steps, couldn't sleep for the pain and had to cancel the next appointment. The following week, which was last week, I told him what he did set me back weeks and weeks and now the pain was as bad as the day after the original surgery. He apologized but then strapped weights to my ankle for the first exercises. I told him no in no uncertain terms, that it hurt to the point of screaming and that it also was killing my back where I had plates and screws (from breaking my back in '92). The girl helping him immediately took off the weights, but when she walked off, he put them right back on, telling me it would be fine, and then let go of my leg. I yelled bloody murder. That was last Thursday. I have upcoming appts every other day for the next 2 weeks beginning tomorrow but as soon as I finish writing to you, I am calling and cancelling all of them. He is not going to do this to me ever again. From the movement under the knee cap to the pain now running the entire length of my leg and to under my foot, I am positive he's made a new rip in the meniscus. I have a followup appt with the surgeon on June 10th and even though he never listens at all and only keeps saying how great I look and how glad he is to see me, I will tell him what has happened and if he wants to do a new MRI, fine, but he will never, ever be allowed to operate on me again, either. I'm just done with it all and want to rest my achin' bod and do my own leg/knee exercises and heal.....or at least heal to the point where I can bear it. It's all been a nightmare and I had no idea I'd be out of commission for this long. It's been 7 weeks so far, and I know the healing time is said to be 2 months at the earliest and goes all the way to 6 months, but I'll bet anything that didn't take all this into consideration. I feel like the surgeon and the therapist walked right out of the Mad Hatter's Tea Party.
So that's the story up to this point and I think I'll post this to my page just for an update, but I swear, as this is the way it is right now, I'm honestly not sure of when I'll write much. Just this typing/sitting has my leg really, really hurting. It's like piano wires strung too tight and then pinged. What a bunch of crap to happen, ugh.
But rather than write and just bitch and complain, I'd rather not blog at all until I can be smiling and laughing again. I sure hope you and the rest of our wonderful group understands.
Always love to you and missing you, too,