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Honey, I'm Home's Morning Mantra ~~ Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says, "Oh NO, She's up!"

Friday, March 25, 2011

Filling in the Blanks ~~

Nothing like a downer post but this one, I’m sorry to say, is just that.  I know it’s been since Valentine’s Day or thereabouts since I last posted anything, but I tell ya, when it rains, it pours.  You remember the water main getting dug up?  Well, a 2nd time around on that one and so I was without water for a couple of days.  I wouldn’t have been so bad if there had been some warning but there wasn’t.  No water is a real pain.

The next happening was the entire heating and cooling system to the house.  The 28 yr old system gave up the ghost just as we went right back into freezing weather.  I had no heat for almost a week and the system was actually seeping carbon monoxide into the house. Mom’s Bob lent me a space heater, but the house had gotten down to 37 degrees and the darn heater almost burned out and had to be shut off.  There was no way I was going to leave for a hotel and have Sam & Lucy by themselves in that cold, so I wore 2 pairs of flannel pjs, 2 pairs of socks, 2 robes, and wrapped blankets and the comforter around all of us – and my teeth were still chattering.  All during all of this, I have been feeling not well at all and have had no time to make any appts for myself to see a doctor.  I imagine I’ll be hauled into the emergency room eventually.

No sooner had the system been replaced for a gazillion bucks (but worth it), than Lee had to go back to the hospital after only being out for a week.  This morning she called me and said that she will not be going home, that as of today she is under hospice care at the hospital and has anywhere from 3 days to a week left on this earth.  I completely lost it, dissolved into tears on the spot and kept thinking I must be dreaming and would wake up.  It was no dream, it was real.  My best friend of 25 yrs is dying and there’s nothing I can do about it.  This will be friend #5 within a year that has passed away and I don’t mean  acquaintances, but good, good friends.  I really can’t say I’m feeling “up” about anything at the moment and I don’t even feel like blogging.  This is why you haven’t seen me around in so long.  I miss you, I just can’t quite get a grip right now.  You might say I’m on a retreat from the world for the moment and that I need to catch my breath for whatever is next in store. God, saints preserve me, please.  It’s all been a bit too much.

I’ll be back when I”m back, but know for certain that every single one of you cross my mind every single day, and that’s the truth. There is something very important and heartfelt about our blog-families, but you know what I mean.  I love you.