The love of my life has died. He passed away July 25, 2025. We only had 6 yrs together. He had moved from St Augustine, Fl, to my house in Virginia. We used to laugh because he was the OG hippy and I was such a prep but with a hippy heart. We were meant to be and that's a fact. He was incredibly creative and a true genius and I loved that about him. He was a composer, a pianist, and a poet. All of his hundreds of works are copyrighted including a CD he made that is breathtaking.

I'm typing a double edged sword. I could write a book about him but at the same time I can't speak for crying. I still cannot get through even one day without falling apart and the sounds that come out of me sound like an animal dying. I never knew humans could make such a sound. It is agony, pure agony without him. No one sees this blog anymore so I can be open and honest. I don't want to be in this world anymore. I don't care about anything. I find no joy in living. Here is the link to his obituary. it contains one of his poems that I so loved and a few very dark vids of him playing the piano, but the sound is still good:

     https://obituaries.virginiacremate.com/obituaries/richmond-va/gregory-pieper-12465068

  I'm posting this so that he will forever live and somewhere, someone will land on his obit and hear his music and read about him...about us. Make sure you listen to "If By Chance We Meet Again"

Should anyone see this, do you know....

We had an old blogger buddy that went by the name of Kenny2dogs. He lived in the UK and when we all ended up separated when windows blogging died, Kenny opted to go with wordpress. His addy there is still     https://kenny2dogs.wordpress.com/

Some years ago, maybe 10, I can't remember, he underwent a liver transplant and was doing very well according to his posts. A few years went by and then all of a sudden, no warning, the posts stopped. I don't know what happened. I do know that our friend, Pen (Penelope PenPusher) followed him as well and also on Twitter (now X). There are no posts from either of them on Twitter or Wordpress for years. 

Just wondering if anyone out there remembers him or has information of his health. What a nice guy he was.

This has made me think of Pen, too.  The last time we connected was on blogging when she was so crazy about Johnny Depp. But the saddest time (and I mean I cried) was when her beloved Bess, the sweetest of sweet dogs, passed away. She has not posted in years, either, and so now I wonder if she's ok. If you know, let me know, too.

Moans & Groans

 My forever loved Lucy, my little black and white tuxedo, died on 12-12-22. She was 19. She went in peace in my arms at the vet's, but I haven't been in peace since. I have one left, a rescue, Happy, who is now 7. He tries his best to take the place of Sam & Lucy, and I love him for it, but I swear to God, there will never be another Lucy.

So let's just add to that for this feeling-terrible-for-myself day. Today I happen to be in physical pain along with heartbreak. I'm now in that awful stage of COPD where there's nowhere else to go. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. For the last 2 days, it has been actually painful to breathe so I'm being very quiet and still. 

This photo of my Lucy was taken by the vet within 1 min after her passing in my arms:

Just a few days before, she had still made her way around the house even though she had barely any sight left. Here she is in the kitchen with me. There are no words to describe the love I had for my girl.