My forever loved Lucy, my little black and white tuxedo, died on 12-12-22. She was 19. She went in peace in my arms at the vet's, but I haven't been in peace since. I have one left, a rescue, Happy, who is now 7. He tries his best to take the place of Sam & Lucy, and I love him for it, but I swear to God, there will never be another Lucy.
So let's just add to that for this feeling-terrible-for-myself day. Today I happen to be in physical pain along with heartbreak. I'm now in that awful stage of COPD where there's nowhere else to go. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. For the last 2 days, it has been actually painful to breathe so I'm being very quiet and still.
This photo of my Lucy was taken by the vet within 1 min after her passing in my arms:
I just found you again. Sorry for your situation. I have no suggestions and you don't need any...just put one foot forward after the other is all I can say.....
ReplyDeleteAs I live and breathe! First, I never thought anyone at all would see my post and after I posted it, I was sort of hoping they wouldn't. But the main thing at this very moment, is that I am SO glad to see you! I have missed you and have thought of you so often and hoped you were ok, still in the house, still cooking and enjoying that gorgeous outdoors of yours. Tell me you are ..please say you're ok.
ReplyDeleteAs for my 'man problem', well.....he's on his way here as we speak. He's on a train from Fl to me and honestly I am so excited I can hardly speak. All that mess of his, the awful moods, etc, ended up being terrible infections that he didn't even know he had. His reg doc and the kidney surgeon have gotten him back on track so that he can sleep, react like a reg human being, and get rid of the pain. The bad part is that it was stage 4 kidney cancer but so far, so good. I'm just happy to have his good self back in the world again. He will be here for 2 weeks and we're making plans for him to move here with me. Not easy moving at our age but it's better to be with the one you love and be ancient and not in such good shape than being alone and ancient and not in such good shape. Add to that the shape of the world and all the insane violence, and yeah, I'd love to have him with me. We can take care of each other. SO...I'll be picking him up at the train station tomorrow at 12:30 pm and bringing the old boy home. I've been cooking and cleaning for days! Worth every screaming muscle in my bod.
It's also wonderful that he loves animals as I do and wanted to be a veterinarian. Things are going to be good. I think we've saved the best for last 😊
So fill me in on your side, I'm dying to hear. BUT, if you don't hear back from me for 2 weeks, you sure do know why, sigh.
Honest to goodness, Gere, I'm so happy to hear from you!
You can catch up on my activities and situations any time IF you care to and IF you get a chance. One thing...I am alone but not lonely. Husband died last year June, Brother died this year Jan. Now I can do what I want to do, when I want to and IF I want to. I'm 86 now and will get by with help from friends. NO boyfriend needed! http://nookworm-connectionsmore.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeleteI absolutely will, want to, and will get to sit down after July 8th. I am just heading to the shower (the train is late, of course) and will head to the station after that. Butterflies like crazy.
ReplyDeleteI want to tell you now, though, that I am SO sorry to hear both your husband and brother have passed on. That's a lot of loss in a short period of time. I am glad to hear you're doing ok and good with doing what you want when you want. Yeah, that is a good feeling!
Thanks a ton for including the link for me. I miss our old Windows Live and then even Blogger the way it used to be, so I needed that link for sure.
Talk soon!
Hi Honey. I stumbled on your blog again after seeing Carol Dee's. XX
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