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Honey, I'm Home's Morning Mantra ~~ Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says, "Oh NO, She's up!"

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Closing Out For A While

This is just a short message for all of you sweet blogging friends. I only now saw your comments to me about Curtis and I appreciate them so much. Curtis was the best man I ever knew in my entire life, but you've heard that from me already. The problem is, his death is really hitting me awfully hard and the first anniversary of Mom's death is in 8 days, too. It's just too much right now. I cannot for the life of me stop crying it hurts so badly. To lose my mother who was the dearest person of my life and then to lose Curtis who was truly my best friend (and I was his; not just blogging buddies by any means), well, I don't have the words to describe it. I feel lost and ripped apart. I pray and pray but it doesn't stop these torrential nonstop tears and it's eased nothing. The pain is horrible. I'm going to take a break from blogspot for a bit, no blogging, no visiting. It wouldn't be fair to myself in this state of mind or to you since I wouldn't be sincerely concentrating on your wonderful blogs. Please understand. I need to get away from all of this just for a while and try to recoup and regroup. I wrote my last letter to Curtis on his 3rd blog at blogspot called Hollywood and I hope his spirit sees it. And now I'm writing my last blog here (not for good, just for a time) and hope you see it. Please know that I love you all and feel as if we've been neighbors for a long, long time. You are all precious to me. I'll see you another day. As always, xoxoxo to all -----Jenny 9:53pm my time in Virginia

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  1. hi Jenny, you are much in my thoughts and prayers, those tears will stop eventually, they are needed at this time, but god will dry them and you will feel more able to cope. I want to thank you for the long helpful message you posted to me, it was very kind and loving, especially as you posted it in your time of great distress - lots of love and hugs - nita

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  2. Sorry to see you leave, even for a while. Know we are here for you when you return. Sometimes it helps to just sit down and write it all out of your system. Write a story about Curtis and all the good times you had, something that will make you smile. He'd probably love that! His spirit will live on through you, if you let it. Good luck and hope to see you back here soon.

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  3. I am so sorry Jenny for your loss of a very good friend, more like a brother. I know your mother's passing a year ago still seems like yesterday. I pray you find strength and courage and know many people love you and want to be by your side if you let them. Please email me time to time sweet friend as I will worry, you know that. Love and hugs.

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  4. I'm sorry to hear you're going but understand you for sure. I hope you find some solace and return before too long my friend.

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  5. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers until we meet again here, Jenny. ((((HUGS)))

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  6. For many of us, friendship doesn't exist only as long as the other person is around, Jenny.

    I haven't known you for long, but I do care and will be checking in on you from time to time. When I do, I'll leave a little message for you, as, no doubt, your other friends will.

    Please take as long as it takes for your heart to mend and please know that your friends will be here when you return, however long it takes.

    *hugs Jenny very bigly*

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  7. Hugs and prayers to you, sweet Jenny. I am so sad for your losses. I pray for sunshine and beautiful memories to flood you and heal your tender heart.
    Know how much I care about you and will be looking forward to your return.
    I understand...
    My mother's birthday is in 9 days, her second heavenly birthday.
    Love you

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  8. After reading this post, I relise how important it is for you to take that break.
    A change (in solitude?) is what you require.
    Have a nice time and come back.
    Remember, things don't get easily wiped out. It surfaces from time to time (only the intensity is less)
    I know . . . its been 10 years since I lost someone close, and it still surfaces at the most unexpected times.

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  9. Have a spiritual refreshing break, Jenny..
    We all feel the need...to take 'time out' and reflect on our pain and sorrow. So much feeling overtakes us and we can't continue, or if we do it costs too much...
    Take care , my friend...and so many people are thinking of you...
    I too am taking a holiday, I hope to catch up as soon as I get back...hugs and best wishes to you..

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  10. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. ((hugs))

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  11. My condolences to you on the loss of a really dear friend.
    We all look forward to seeing you back and hoping that your healing comes quickly.

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  12. Hi, Jenny...just touching base to let you know I'm thinking of you and wishing you peace and healing in your heart.

    Lots of hugs!

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  13. Jenny, I just got home from Paul's funeral and only just now learned of this tragedy in your life.

    I am so sorry dear, and I will include you in my prayers I promise.

    I will be checking all of the time to see if we learn how you are.

    Many hugs and love, Jenny.

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  14. Jenny, I just want you to know you have prayers going up for you in Arizona. I know your pain is immense - cry all you need to and never, never forget your beautiful mother or Curtis - the holes they have left in your heart will never heal completely, but they will lesson over time. I know. Please know they are both looking out for you - perhaps even talking about you!! I'll check in often to see if you are back with all of us, your loyal readers. Much love. Dori

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  15. Hi, hope time will easy your sadness. Mei

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  16. Jenny, my thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time. It will get better as time passes although I know from experience that it is hard to realize that right now.
    Love and hugs,
    Beth

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  17. Just stopping by to say HI Jenny and you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers - hugs - nita

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  18. Jenny Im so sorry to hear about Curtis . I didnt know him long just here . Its so hard to loose someone you have been so very close too I know. I really know. It hurts and the hurt and tears just come.
    My thoughts and my prayers are with you as you morn the loss of Curtis and celebrate all he was to you . Also prayer for you as you remember you Mom today and the day she left. Moms are the hardest . We love them with all our being and when they do go we almost feel child like again with so many feeling. Well girl you know them as I do.
    Love you dearly. Take the time you need . Get out and be with nature and all that nutures your heart and soul. We are all with you in Spirt. I was by early early this morning and just could not bring myself to comment yet. I guess it had to soak in a bit.
    and Still Im thinking about you as I end my night here.
    xoxox . We are all here for you even if you dont blog.

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  19. What Lisa said?

    Me, too...

    ...especially "We are all here for you even if you don't blog."

    *hugs*

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  20. Everynight and Evey morning I sit on my swing . It was my Moms .. Its then that I keep all who need to be in my thoughts and prayers and lift them all up to God. Thinking about your in thought and prayers for a good day tomorrow.
    If I can think of a good story and I do have one I may come by and see if I can make you laugh or scream. :)
    Hugs my dear Friend.

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  21. Thinking of you Jenny,
    hug,
    T

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  22. Looking forward to seeing you back on here!

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  23. Thank you for coming to me during my terrible time Jenny. Much love back to you.

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  24. JennyD don't know if you are reading these yet. But if you are could you email me please. bdkoop2002@yahoo.ca Thanks

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  25. I hope your days are quiet, peaceful, and healing, Jenny. A lot of people are thinking of and missing you at this moment; please know how much we care and hope our support brings you comfort in your sad time.

    *hugs*

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  26. hi Jenny, Missing you and thinking of you, hope as times passes your pain is becoming a bit less acute. well guess that is it for now,will come back again take care - big hugs - nita

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  27. Jenny so sorry to hear the news. Time heals and the wonderful memories will be with you forever. Letting the tears flow is a good thing. Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts. Giving you a warm embrace. Carrie

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  28. Im stopping by to check on you . Your with me daily and thought of.
    Miss you Girl.
    but take your time
    Much Love xoxo

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  29. Checking in to say hello and that I hope things are getting a bit better for you.
    Hugs,
    Beth

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  30. Checking on you every day. Hope you come back to us soon.

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  31. Hi, Jenny...

    I'm here to touch base with you and offer a little encouragement in your time of sadness.

    Please, if you're up to it, would you post a little update to let us know how you're doing?

    Our hope is that you're getting stronger in your grieving process with each day which passes; may you find comfort and peace in your faith and sweett memories of Curtis and your mom.

    Thinking of you, as ever...

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  32. hi Jenny, thinking of you and hope there are glints of light in your life again. Take Care

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  33. We all are thinking and missing you. Hope you can come back soon!

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  34. What Dave said?

    Soon???

    Miss you!

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  35. You OK, darlin'? Think of you every day when I log in. (((HUGS)))

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  36. We're still thinking of you and want ya back soon.

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  37. Hi, sweetie...me again.

    Just touching base to add my voice those of the others who long for your return.

    Please?

    Soon?

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  39. Hi, Jenny; I'm baaack!

    Just touching base to let you know you're thought of and still missed.

    It's awfully lonely here, you know. This blog really needs you; so do your friends...

    Thinking of you and wishing you well...

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  40. Just a little note to remind you that you are missed, and being thought of by many of us in the "extended family".
    Hope you can come back to us soon.

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  41. Hi Jenny, I Hope the autumn colors can bring some light back into your life... Special hugs. Carrie

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