Closing Out For A While

This is just a short message for all of you sweet blogging friends. I only now saw your comments to me about Curtis and I appreciate them so much. Curtis was the best man I ever knew in my entire life, but you've heard that from me already. The problem is, his death is really hitting me awfully hard and the first anniversary of Mom's death is in 8 days, too. It's just too much right now. I cannot for the life of me stop crying it hurts so badly. To lose my mother who was the dearest person of my life and then to lose Curtis who was truly my best friend (and I was his; not just blogging buddies by any means), well, I don't have the words to describe it. I feel lost and ripped apart. I pray and pray but it doesn't stop these torrential nonstop tears and it's eased nothing. The pain is horrible. I'm going to take a break from blogspot for a bit, no blogging, no visiting. It wouldn't be fair to myself in this state of mind or to you since I wouldn't be sincerely concentrating on your wonderful blogs. Please understand. I need to get away from all of this just for a while and try to recoup and regroup. I wrote my last letter to Curtis on his 3rd blog at blogspot called Hollywood and I hope his spirit sees it. And now I'm writing my last blog here (not for good, just for a time) and hope you see it. Please know that I love you all and feel as if we've been neighbors for a long, long time. You are all precious to me. I'll see you another day. As always, xoxoxo to all -----Jenny 9:53pm my time in Virginia